Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Don't know how to let you go



It has been 6 years you and I being apart
I still do not know how to let you go out from my life, you still come to my mind, my dream time and time.

I only realized what I've learned in this 6 years is to embrace things that happened, accept that I cannot get to hear your voices anymore, and then to say ok that sometimes crying over over-misssing you is ok, many times I find myself lost, but I know what I need to do

Monday, February 25, 2013

A smile from a friend worth a million dollars

I just posted a series of the pictures I took a year ago almost the same time now.
I really wished to see how it would make an impact on the feeling for the person being photographed, when she looked at the lady from the picture one year go, what comes through her mind, what has been different since then...

At the same time, I have the chance to ask myself, what do I get from this? was I happy doing this? and if yes, will I be always feeling good doing it?
I know a thing that I like seeing most, I like to see my friends smile, which will worth a lot to me :) and I hope the pictures will act as a net to capture some happy moments they had on that time...


Thursday, February 21, 2013

Addicted



There are some small games which make people go addicted playing, the latest games that do that to me are these 2, Diamond dush and Candy Crush...

p/s: I quit these games, apps were deleted from my phone on 22nd Feb.

When I was told 'when you can't beat them, join them'
My question is 'have I already fought my all until I have to join them?'

At this moment of my life, I need a change, God please help me...

Saturday, February 16, 2013

Best feeling to be at home

It is always best to be pampered by family, even an instant noodles, I never feel 'empty'...

Friday, February 1, 2013

My 2012


I love this picture, it was taken almost one year ago.
It is my work, and this is one of my favourite pose when I take self-portrait, it is like trying to look back at what had happened in your past on yourself.

I would like to look back to what happened on me during the one year from the time I took this picture until today. What is different now, what has changed so far...

I believe most of the things about me changed, except my photography skill, still far way to improve :p
But when I said things about me changed, they really changed drastically.

During last year, around these days I was struggling with my last job, I was too stressed with the work load I had, I was not satisfied with the pay, I was not happy; I had the plan to quit and go travelling in New Zealand for as long as I could with the working holiday visa that I applied earlier. I did quit my last job and went to New Zealand on April, but I did not stay longer than a month where my visa would allow me to stay up to 9 months. I went to the furthest country I ever traveled and I spent my 3 and a half week backpack, with my camera, with my long lost imagination. It was my most fulfilling solo travel so far (after Japan, and Taiwan).

I came back to Singapore after New Zealand for a start of new job, which is my current job, as sales executive for another Japanese co. Things were fine, and I started to handle works I ever handled alone, I think those were good chances for me to learn. I had a better pay, and I had a better life, I moved to a more comfortable place to stay instead of renting a room from a family as landlord, I have now a larger space to move around, I can watch TV at living room, I can cook at the kitchen, and I can be topless walking within the house. I have good and friendly housemates.

Besides all the good things that happened on me for this one year, there are unbearable pain I received too, from someone I love, I felt cheated and I was at many times tired and felt life is too much to handle. I gave up and found the hope back myself. I survived.

I am positive thinker, ever; or should I say I am forgetful? Neither are good things for me, I always find hope in the next morning when I wake up, the next day always looks a good day to start a new life.

The day before was another good day for me, I received a satisfying increment from my company, I promised to myself that only comparing my life with my past, and not with people who never lived my days.


Different-less

Fake, yet Real

poeple like fake stories,
then people are creating, telling, listening, and believing...

it's all about choosing,
shows no difference...


Show your colours...

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