At last, A blender at home

Okie, at last we got a machine to make fruit drinks at home...
I want mango milkshake :o

What is missing?

The question comes to my mind at times, 

whenever I have moved a little forward, this will always hold me back, 

what is that piece missing in my heart?

Everybody is a genius..

But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid.

31st Dec 2012

It is coming to the end of year 2012.
What's there to wish for everyone in 2013? I wish everyone gets a chance to try all types of loves out in this world :)

Irasshaimase, here I am a waiter

It has been such a long time since I last worked part time.

But doing a part time work has been something on my mind when I just stepped in to working era 4 years ago. Until 2 days ago I finally found myself one, and attended my first day of part time job as a waiter. There is a mixed feeling when I received the offer, and complicated emotions in me when I accepted the offer. The feelings are partly excited because I found the job within 2 days of finding; concerned because as a 28 years old with working experience of 4 years in export sales, I took a job that I have no experience at all and mostly done by either students who are waiting for exam results or older people who prefers working than staying at home; I was happy as the pay offered to me was what I requested and which is slightly higher hour pay than part time jobs I saw online; I was worried if at this stage of age and body condition, will I still be able to stay that strong like 6 or 7 years ago when I could attend a few part time works and requested more working hours from employer for the sake of earning more hour pay?; I was not convinced if what I am going to do will be worthwhile, as I am not doing this for myself, I am doing for someone I care so much but have cheated on me for 3 times. I was tired and I needed sleep but I hardly fell into deeper sleep, but I have no option but to believe it the fourth time, and if it fails, I believe I will have nothing left (be it physical strength nor mental strength) to move on. Ahead of me, there is biggest risk biggest challenge to be faced, so I have to rest…

为什么说谎

你说你还在 一分一秒也没走开
我想留在这里 可是这一切已太晚
我不能再像从前一样
为我们的明天疯狂
你不必解释 你为什么说谎

你不能说我没有爱过 说我没等过难过
我也想说 也许能重来我却还是沉默
你一直问我的心到底在不在
问我怎能不遗憾就丢失了爱
而我的泪 怎么就流下来

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这时候，解释已经没有意义，
流过的泪，这里没有人想挽回。

今天它死了

有些生命在某个时候就要结束。

它在32个月来临之前，死了。

Golden Shrimp

Golden Shrimp (with salted egg yolk)

Never thought woulf ever have chance to enjoy this dish at home
The best thing was I did not need to prepare it myself :)

Guess I just had a happy moment that belongs to only me
超満足だ！！

One Wanderer

It just won't be happy day in everyday,
should there be a need to stay cheerful everyday? give me a reason I have to do so...
I understood even accepted this is mine, this is a life I chose to live,
but wouldn't I have the right to feel disappointed and dissatisfied? and tired about it sometimes?

I want to give my bad times a break
They say, 'This is what life is about...'
I guess it means there should be good days and bad ones too.
I am facing them, although it is not easy at all, I was like an old lady with depression, sitting at the bench in a shopping mall, and started tearing, feeling miserable, feeling my life sucks so much that I want to put down everything that I just shopped and run to somewhere I see no happiness, everything is so cruel to show up at that moment...

I have been learning to be one wanderer, I was at the top floor on the building; I was at the middle of the road with busy traffic, when I was walking back home with smiles don't belong to me.

Life is long when you think it is long;
Life is short when you think it is as short.
I know how much I owe my real life once

I am one life wanderer

I don't want to lose any

When there is nothing to gain,

there is nothing to lose;

怀恋

这时候，我开始又怀恋了。

那大海风吹不乱的短发；

那大海声乱不着的平静.

在 Hokitika 的两天，我享受它傍晚时的海风，很强的风却吹不乱人的心绪；

我留了三个星期的短发，被吹得无法招架， 我的心却格外的平静；

平静让我看见海浪的方向；平静让我听见自己的脚步；

平静让我感觉平静。

这时候，我懂我怀恋的不是那次的旅行，而是久违的平静。

It always comes with $

                                                       

Recently stressed by Love?
Recently stressed by Money?

                                                   

Lego.Land (II)

Alright, this is something I enjoyed when I visited Legoland, the world of miniature at the center of this land is amazing. It amused me so much, here I share some of them I love with you here :)

How interesting if there is one in this colour in real

Oh, I love this cruise

This is made so purposely to please Singaporean visitors :D

These few shots are my favourite

I love this shot, how would they ever thought of putting a small girl at that spot!

Some shots at castle, look at the wall with cracks...

Back to some old age...

Canon Photomarathon 2012

So it was once a year photomarathon organised by Canon again.
This is my third year participating, though I did not get any prize this year, it was truly a good way to skill up, and to admire other people master pieces...

Below are my entries for the 3 themes of the contest :) (for my own memory)

1st Theme: Wonder

2nd Theme: Harmony

3rd Theme: Pleasure

Hope I would get a better works in Photomarathon 2013

Lego.Land (I)

So I had got to go to this place, not even Universal Studio in Singapore I ever thought of going even I have been living in this small country for 4 years. I went to this, it was an outing with my dad, and my sister's family, my niece and nephew longed for sitting in a car made by bricks, Lego bricks which they do not even play with, but we bought the tickets and stepped in to their unfamiliar land :)

It was crowded under hot Saturday!

Show for kids, good for parents to rest under shaded place 

 

I spent long time queuing to buy tickets, so I killed some time on taking these

This girl who prepared the tickets for us, happened to be neighbor of my sister, I found the name tag so  cute :) would love to have one

These tickets are like achievement, put aside the RM500 that we spent getting them, the feeling to take up a long queue under hot sun and finally got them was awesome

My nephew took a 30 minutes queue for a 5 minutes boat ride was  brave :P This is a pic he stood looking at other people riding boats, I guess the thing that you waited long enough, they become the best (or at least look the best ever) when you finally got them

My lovely niece was the victim of the day (in my own opinion) as there was nothing much in that Land brings any memories to her, nor any good game that she was allowed to play due to height limit, luckily she was easily satisfied by food

I will post some pictures on things that fascinated me in Legoland soon :)
LEGOLAND

Love $

A lot of people are trying to look for money,

some are trying to prove love is in the money,

and the deeper you seek the more priceless love is;

Some gave up during their journey,

realising true love never hides in money,

it is to be seen,

A few never hesitated,

time is only spent embracing the existing love they already have 

<3 p="p">

Back as Titanium

How about coming back as a Titanium
I am inspired by this song, the lyrics, and music video, realizing how different I am, and how far I have been hiding myself from...





You shout it loud, but I can't hear a word you sayI'm talking loud, not saying muchI'm criticized, but all your bullets ricochetyou shoot me down, but I get up
I'm bulletproof, nothing to losefire away, fire awayricochet, you take your aimfire away, fire awayyou shoot me down, but I won't fallI am titaniumyou shoot me down, but I won't fallI am titanium
Cut me down, but it's you who'll have further to fallGhost town and haunted loveRaise your voice, sticks and stones may break my bonesI'm talking loud, not saying much
I'm bulletproof, nothing to losefire away, fire awayricochet, you take your aimfire away, fire awayyou shoot me down, but I won't fallI am titaniumyou shoot me down, but I won't fallI am titanium
Stone hard, machine gunFired at the ones who runStone hard, as bulletproof glass
You shoot me down, but I won't fallI am titanium

终于舍得的你们

致终于舍得的你们,


忽然，我想起了你们。
当这首歌的一段段，那么贴切的陈述着你和你。
终于舍得过自己的生活，

当他决定了向左，他向前走了。
当他决定了向左，你向前走了吗？

当谁都不再等谁了，都懂了...


celtryan

Dear J2N

Dear J2N,
你好！
谢谢你关心我的生活。

我的烦恼，看似你很是清楚。哈！我明白自己是珍贵的，所以如今每一天都在学习着如何爱护珍贵的东西，那包括我和他的回忆，既然忘不了的，我选择面对自己的感受，为这段回忆我愿意妥协的可以不只这些，所以请别再要我忘记这和我一样珍贵的东西。

记得，你曾经想知道我对从前，现在，与未来的想法。
我忽然很想对你的疑问做表达， 虽然这些想法明天一大清早，很可能又会有所改变，

关于现在 - 和你所写的一样，我不懂该把自己放在哪个位子，和你所表达不同的是，我并没有要把自己放在任何一个位子上； 再和你想的不同的还有，我没有为这件事情看来沮丧，或正在烦恼着，反而，我享受着。

我发觉（虽然之前已经知道了），自己忽冷忽热的性格，很叫身边的人难受，这会不会是单身后的情绪化较糟糕，荷尔蒙较失调呢？well, 这是我正在担心的，可是，这也不代表我会随便要一个人来爱我，包括你在内，最多去找医生调个平衡荷尔蒙来吃也好！

关于未来 - 一片空白。

我是所真的。 很想向你说说我的计划，可是实际上自己就是个不爱计划的人，或应该说，是个不会计划的人。可是，我知道，我有很多很多我想做的事情，我会慢慢实现，而我可以看得见，我的明天，我都会是开心的。

这些开心的事情，而也是你会陪我一起做的，因为，这人生会是我控制的，没得你太多给意见。

总而言之，你会和我一样，需要自由，爱上自由！我，会带着你飞！


最近，知道你身体都没有很好，你需要多点休息的时间。
保重！

Ryan

P/S: 我并没有忘了提‘关于从前’， 而是，关于从前的想法，谁理啊！？？ 一起向前冲咯！！

Dear Ryan,

Dear Ryan,

i know sometimes you have hard times placing yourself, finding who you are...

no worries, as from now on,
let me play your game, and
i'm putting you anywhere, naming you noone....

nobody loves you, nobody will love you, i will!



it's gonna be a new fun time! for both of us...


cheers
J2N

life-traffic

i can't breath, i don't breath...

as it's fast, it never stops...

it's life....

J2N

忘不了

有些回忆，管你怎么拔，也拔不掉；
有些人，管你怎么忘...

我只是还忘不了他开过的一个玩笑...

CR

Learning...

may you smile,
don't be scared!!

let your hair down,
cut it bold, let it shine!
then you shine!!

why cry?
stop crying, learn shouting!
learn yelling! learn laughing! then you learn to be pretty,
is to be it...when you think you are pretty...

turn your head, and look at your own shadow,
then you know black is beautiful, then you know life need not much colour to be colourful...

CR

MC!MC!

MC!

沉淀

让我沉，
让我沉淀

J2N