In the darkness 7th Oct

I thought of you, almost 4 years ago, you told me that I have put you in dark. I said to you that I have met the right person and asked for your blessing. I never doubted how much I could give up for this, and how much efforts I could do to work this.
I missed out to understand that it only takes 2 hands to clap, no matter how much I want it to work out, it never returns on how much efforts you put in, it just doesn't...