In the darkness 7th Oct

I thought of you, almost 4 years ago, you told me that I have put you in dark. I said to you that I have met the right person and asked for your blessing. I never doubted how much I could give up for this, and how much efforts I could do to work this.
I missed out to understand that it only takes 2 hands to clap, no matter how much I want it to work out, it never returns on how much efforts you put in, it just doesn't... 

回到那年时

我不喜欢后悔的感觉，我没有想过放弃你而选择他会让我有这刻心情。
因为选择他是我认为永不后悔的事情，而我们分开也是我当时认为理所当然的结果。

是我今天对幸福的看法变了，抑或他忘了他能给的幸福？ 最坏的会是我们都认为大家都被幸福拥抱着，却每晚都需要无尽的好梦让自己活过明天的寂寞。

我依然珍惜，我依然怀恋那纯纯的爱。

我看见你的自信和快乐，我给你的是我最真诚的微笑，你会一直拥有我的祝福。

Elysium - A time of quiet watch

Was it because the movie has nothing to be discussed after watching?
Or simply we needed a quiet time to enjoy this boring movie?

I wish there will be an existance of Elysium, and let all wounds in this world be cured...

The Conjuring - Consider twice before you watch it if you are to sleep alone at night

This movie is so scary, it has been such long time I get to watch a movie that freaked me out so much.
I did not come to think that I had to sleep alone after the movie :(

I felt like I survived when I woke up this morning.

Does Pebble SmartWatch make me a smarter person?

The answer is a definite NO I know.

My birthday present reached me last night.
I asked for this present after making a search from google for a smart watch/gadget

I just wanted myself to start getting more contacts with up-to-date stuff, which I have been lazy to learn.

This is another motivation :)
I will use u wisely Pebble 

- My Love -

I find this song is so relevant to my current emotion, feelings.I have too much inside; yet I made no talking

MY LOVE - Celine Dion
My love, we have seen it allThe endless confession, the rise and fallAs fragile as a childBut lately I'm sorry I can't hold a smile
But I stand tall to get byNo matter how hard I try to hide
Did you know I take the time for you?Did you know that I would see you through?Did you know that I would play the part?I must've made it clear right from the start
My love, can you give me strength?Somehow I forgot how to ease my painI know I'm right where I belongSomething from nothing never proved me wrong
But I stand tall to get byNo matter how hard I try to hide
Did you know I take the time for you?Did you know that I would see you through?Did you know that I would play the part?I must've made it clear right from the start
I would share my whole life with youWould you do the same for me?I would give all I am to youWould you do the same for me?
And I will stand tall to get byNo matter how hard I try to hideCould you see I've been brave?Did you notice all my mistakes?There were times I could feel you read my mind
Did you know I take the time for you?Did you know that I could see right through?Did you know that I would play the part?I know I made it clear right from the start

Old & New friends

In the weekend, I met an old friend and a new friend
The excitements from both were indescribably great;

I did not expect I still got a chance to get in touch again with my old friend
=> Giap
*My senior in my secondary school
*One of my favorite blogger (have been reading his blog until lost contact, and his blog brought down)
*My idol in Chinese writing
Thanks for the advanced technology, and Facebook, which makes finding long lost friend easier
I am so glad that I am able to read good blogpost again from him :)

Because of the same interest on Photography, I met a new friend
=> Kenny
*A hairstylist
He showed me his Sony Nex 6 which is so cool with all recent features
We ended sitting under the our HDB block with beers and nuts and talking craps until midnight
It was so fun and at that time, I finally realised the joy of those 'uncles' sitting at the coffee shops with beers and talk craps loud~
The fact is I have become one uncle too :)

my baby ELITE is alive

Finally my Elite is alive
I was once feeling so so down thinking I have to let u go
Being positive is always a positive action

HP fixed it within 2 working days

I am impressed and grateful :)

Not again, colon cancer

I have been wishing nothing bad happens to my family, especially after I lost my mom 6 years ago, '
'safety and health' are always the first thing come to my mind whenever I wish
I can't imagine losing another person that I love
This time, it attacks my sister, she is a single mom with 2 kids in primary school.
At beginning of stage 3, we all stay positive to fight this together.
I am sure this is another challenge from God to us, to me, except facing it with smiles, we try laughter
What a life without ups and downs; what a life without smiles and lot of laughter?

what's more important?

We do what is more important first
The only questions will only be:
: What is more important to you?

Anniversary

Three years has not been a short time, let's put down our egos and live it another 27 years together

p/s: I hope I am always the long hair guy that you like to be with

回到那时侯

忽然很想回到那时侯，
吹着风，拉着风筝线，与你一起飞的时候

当发现回不了了，放下风筝让自己不再那么沉重，自由的随风飘飘，如何？

我就是我，是颜色不一样的烟火

I am what I am
我永远都爱这样的我
快乐是
快乐的方式不只一种
最荣幸是
谁都是造物者的光荣
不用闪躲
为我喜欢的生活而活
不用粉墨
就站在光明的角落

我就是我
是颜色不一样的烟火
天空海阔
要做最坚强的泡沫
我喜欢我
让蔷薇开出一种结果
孤独的沙漠里
一样盛放的赤裸裸

多么高兴
在琉璃屋中快乐生活
对世界说
什么是光明和磊落

不是那个人

这世界上有享受被呼之则来；挥之则去的人。

可惜我并不是那个人。

Bubbles no more please

Promises are like bubbles, break once touches the ground;

How many times I am asked to be the ground, seeing every bubbles break without a goodbye

How many times you were stepping on me, asking me to be happy

Still how many bubbles left I need to see them breaking in front of me?
I wish I can be the blower, or I should wish I never met the blower

Don't know how to let you go

It has been 6 years you and I being apart
I still do not know how to let you go out from my life, you still come to my mind, my dream time and time.

I only realized what I've learned in this 6 years is to embrace things that happened, accept that I cannot get to hear your voices anymore, and then to say ok that sometimes crying over over-misssing you is ok, many times I find myself lost, but I know what I need to do

A smile from a friend worth a million dollars

I just posted a series of the pictures I took a year ago almost the same time now.
I really wished to see how it would make an impact on the feeling for the person being photographed, when she looked at the lady from the picture one year go, what comes through her mind, what has been different since then...

At the same time, I have the chance to ask myself, what do I get from this? was I happy doing this? and if yes, will I be always feeling good doing it?
I know a thing that I like seeing most, I like to see my friends smile, which will worth a lot to me :) and I hope the pictures will act as a net to capture some happy moments they had on that time...

Addicted

There are some small games which make people go addicted playing, the latest games that do that to me are these 2, Diamond dush and Candy Crush...

p/s: I quit these games, apps were deleted from my phone on 22nd Feb.

When I was told 'when you can't beat them, join them'
My question is 'have I already fought my all until I have to join them?'

At this moment of my life, I need a change, God please help me...

Best feeling to be at home

It is always best to be pampered by family, even an instant noodles, I never feel 'empty'...

My 2012

I love this picture, it was taken almost one year ago.
It is my work, and this is one of my favourite pose when I take self-portrait, it is like trying to look back at what had happened in your past on yourself.

I would like to look back to what happened on me during the one year from the time I took this picture until today. What is different now, what has changed so far...

I believe most of the things about me changed, except my photography skill, still far way to improve :p
But when I said things about me changed, they really changed drastically.

During last year, around these days I was struggling with my last job, I was too stressed with the work load I had, I was not satisfied with the pay, I was not happy; I had the plan to quit and go travelling in New Zealand for as long as I could with the working holiday visa that I applied earlier. I did quit my last job and went to New Zealand on April, but I did not stay longer than a month where my visa would allow me to stay up to 9 months. I went to the furthest country I ever traveled and I spent my 3 and a half week backpack, with my camera, with my long lost imagination. It was my most fulfilling solo travel so far (after Japan, and Taiwan).

I came back to Singapore after New Zealand for a start of new job, which is my current job, as sales executive for another Japanese co. Things were fine, and I started to handle works I ever handled alone, I think those were good chances for me to learn. I had a better pay, and I had a better life, I moved to a more comfortable place to stay instead of renting a room from a family as landlord, I have now a larger space to move around, I can watch TV at living room, I can cook at the kitchen, and I can be topless walking within the house. I have good and friendly housemates.

Besides all the good things that happened on me for this one year, there are unbearable pain I received too, from someone I love, I felt cheated and I was at many times tired and felt life is too much to handle. I gave up and found the hope back myself. I survived.

I am positive thinker, ever; or should I say I am forgetful? Neither are good things for me, I always find hope in the next morning when I wake up, the next day always looks a good day to start a new life.

The day before was another good day for me, I received a satisfying increment from my company, I promised to myself that only comparing my life with my past, and not with people who never lived my days.

At last, A blender at home

Okie, at last we got a machine to make fruit drinks at home...
I want mango milkshake :o

What is missing?

The question comes to my mind at times, 

whenever I have moved a little forward, this will always hold me back, 

what is that piece missing in my heart?

Everybody is a genius..

But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid.